makes no difference who you are

Undoubtedly, university is an extension of high school in that people still form cliques and have their love/hate relationships. They have petty arguments, and strong friendships and we still form great memories.

One of the best things about leaving high school behind was that you would leave that environment where ideas are fairly close minded. You can now be your own person, and choose to reinvent yourself if you so wish. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't bullied at school or anything. I was certainly teased but nothing malicious, even though I was one of a handful of Orientals at my school. I wasn't one of the popular girls either nor did I want to be. I felt that I understood myself a lot more towards the end of my high school and sixth form career and I was ready to start afresh somewhere new.

Since being in the university environment, I feel that a similar thing is happening - there are certainly the popular people and the ones who are teased a little, and there are groups who stick together. The same things happen, with friends going out with other people's friends or other people's exes.

I have, or I suppose I would like to think I have, unwritten and unspoken rules with my friends about partners. I don't care if my friends don't approve of my significant other or vice versa. It's handy but not a requisite - normally, my heart rules my head in emotional related matters. I try not to mix them together, not because I don't want them to all get on, but because we have separate lives and because they're two parts of my life that existed happily without the other and can continue to do so. I am not one of those people who does everything with their significant other.

I just wish people would move past friendship and relationship politics, but if you put a big group of people together, such things will happen.

some questions

1. Best and worst year of school

Best year - year 13 because it was kind of when I starting to know who I was. I realised who my friends were. I was sort of dating a guy. Not to boast, but I was also respected at my school, partly because I was one of the older girls and because I turned up to all my classes. This year was the 100th anniversary of my school's founding, I made lots of great memories AND I passed my driving test. First time.

Worst year - year 8 because I was having struggles with my self confidence and my weight, and I just felt like a bit of a loner at school.

2. Haircut you wish you could pull off

Frankie Sandford's pixie crop.

3. If you could live as a character in a movie who would it be?

I would love to be a princess. You know how when you were younger, and you always wanted to have x career that was unattainable but something you'd dream about? I would love to be a princess. Hence, I would quite like to be Rapunzel in Tangled. Not because she had an evil relative, but because she showed strength in adversity and didn't give up on her dream of seeing the lanterns.

4. Make up a word, what does it mean?

I make up a lot of words regularly. Floraquintinuity. (just googled it to check it's not a real word already) It means surrounding oneself with flowers, but not in a stifling manner, to make oneself happy.

5. Amusement park or lay in bed?

Bed - my bed is where I sleep, read, use my computer for non-work related things and where I eat snacks. I am not an adrenaline seeker, but amusement parks are quite fun for the social aspect. But when I want to be a creature of habit and just stay in, bed sounds good.

6. Weirdest thing you've been asked by a parent?

Er, I am not entirely sure. I've been asked strange things in the context of hospital if that counts.

7. Favorite vegetables

I like most vegetables, like carrots and beans and onions. Then there's things like butternut squash which I am not sure about but would probably still eat. I don't think I get the same pleasure from food that other people seem to do.

8. Current crush

I would rather not say.... it's someone who might read this and I don't want to take that chance that he might find out!! It's someone I've known for a while though. 

serious furniture love

It is no secret that I love interior design. (Maybe it is....)

These shoe baths are very decadent though! Sometimes P and I joke about a theoretical future house we'll have together, and we'll each have a wing in which we can do our own thing.

I have a secret fascination with looking at people's houses and the way they design them. Bit by bit, the place where I live has borne the brunt of my efforts to change the place in which I live. Once I got it in my head to cover two of my walls with magazine articles and adverts.



www.sicis.it

manners

Habitual lateness is an exemplary instance of bad manners - because it makes clear you value your time above that of your confederates. - Sam Leith, Tatler

February 29th

Today's the day that only happens once every 4 years and the day that traditionally, ladies can propose to men.

Myself, I am not such a huge fan of predictable proposals (Christmas Eve/Day, New Year's Eve, Valentine's Day, February 29th); they're just so... predictable. Anniversaries aren't so bad, but I just feel like there's an expectation if you propose on Valentine's Day or at Christmas. With marriages so often ending in divorce, I hope that there aren't too many proposals that ultimately don't end in a lifelong marriage today!

when everyone's lost the battle is won

This is a postdated entry as it's the only day that hasn't yet been filled in (at the time of current writing, but will be scheduled for my February posting) so I thought I'd talk about what I have been up to. I feel like so much time has passed since I wrote here (probably has been) and also that so much has happened (probably has) but it's all becoming a blur. But not in a good way. Sometimes I have weekends where some events blur into one just because I have been having a great time, or not even doing anything in particular, but I learnt how to do something.


Been attending lectures - it was initially hard to get back into the mindset of lectures. Some of the lectures have involved taking extensive notes... I always start with good intentions where my writing is clearly legible. Then it gets into shorthand and I abbreviate a lot of things. Then it becomes a bit scrawly and that's probably where my friends who try to look through my notes can't read it any more. On the whole, I write joined-up but when my hand is tired from all that writing, it becomes more joined up such that it takes one well versed in Carol-script to decipher. I abbreviate a LOT and I think it mustn't make sense a lot of the time to a lot of people. It would have helped to have breaks in between lectures to nourish and hydrate, and also to let people stretch their legs.


I have seen The Iron Lady, which I quite enjoyed. It was a fairly succinct account of Thatcher in power and her battle with dementia. It was different to other films I've seen - I don't think I have ever seen a biopic before. Meryl Streep is very elegant in this film, particularly her transformation to the leader of the party, and the young Thatcher is good as well. Because of the run up to the Oscar season, loads of big films came out but I haven't seen any of them. There's nothing really out that I desperately want to see though.


There was the circle line pub crawl the other day - I joined briefly after lectures had finished. It was a good social occasion. Essentially, it's something that happens once a year and entails having a drink at every stop of the circle line. I've never completed it, and went this year to just 2 places for a drink (I think). I got back and drank 3 pints of water and thus only had a tiny wave of nausea in the morning.


Some friends and I went to a live band karaoke thing - we sang one song (which didn't work as there were 5 of us but it was still good fun) and I really liked most of the songs sung. It was just my thing - a mix of new and old rock +/- indie +/- pop songs. To be honest, I'd never seen this place before, it was in the basement of a bar.


This year will be my second of giving away books through World Book Night. I have chosen to give away The Alchemist by Paul Coelho, for which I wrote an impassioned paragraph about why I should give this book away. Thankfully, this year it is only 24 books, as opposed to last year's 48 - this way, the books can reach further and they are also a lot easier to carry!


I attended London Fashion Weekend at Somerset House and got some pretty things - 2 Lola Rose scarves, some jeans, two jumpers and two dresses. Apparently I am a Demi Curve according to the Levi's Curve ID people. I have a strange body shape and often don't trust other people to buy me clothes (except my mother and P, the latter of whom just gets 'the smallest size they have') but the sizes on my upper and lower body are different.


Of most of the people I know, I feel that I am the only person who has not yet watched the BBC series of Sherlock. I also don't really watch a lot of TV (there have been several conversations to this effect...) but sometimes I watch David Attenborough's productions. This led me to think about what I do in my spare time (the little that I do have...) - I spend a lot of time rearranging things in my room and looking at interior design. I blog here (it doesn't take up much time - sometimes I spend a couple of hours every so often prewriting). I go to exhibitions in galleries and museums. I read sporadically.


I've also found a perfume that I like and that didn't cost me a lot. It's one of the Britney Spears ones, and smells very sweet. The bottle is also very girly.


This website is also quite a good flowchart to help you decide whether or not you want to help someone out... shouldiworkforfree.com


Feel like everybody knows this song, but it is very haunting and the video is quite cool (just watched it yesterday).

thought catalog

I first came across Thought Catalog through a link someone had posted on facebook, related to that Jay Z song, 99 problems. I think it just essentially listed 99 first world problems that Jay Z could have.


Since then, I periodically read the newest updates on the website - it's a website where contributors write about a random topic, sometimes it's seasonal or related to relevant news at the time, but it's a short piece every time about x subject. It's very interesting to read people's viewpoints which range from not understanding Pokemon, to the aforementioned Jay Z's theoretical 99 first world problems, to understanding what the difference between good and bad sex is, to a 80's revival and songs you adore.


There are several updates every day, which is great because you can go to the site every day, or to your google reader or blog feed or other blog follower type thing, and there's a selection of new thoughts. In this sense, it is 'cataloguing' thoughts, because different people write each one.


Here is the TC manifesto:

1. Thought Catalog is illuminating and informative.
2. The site is well-designed and clutter-free.
3. TC contributors are smart. They’re at the vanguard of their respective fields and have published everywhere from The Paris Review to Maxim.
4. We’re nobrow and nonpartisan. We don’t take any of this or ourselves too seriously. Culture is our politics.
5. Reading Thought Catalog will probably make you more interesting. You’re going to find out about stuff here you won’t see in the mainstream media. Thought Catalog will open new perspectives.
6. We’re about today. But our mission is also archival. We plan on sticking around for a longtime.
7. Our content is always vetted and (most of the time) edited.
8. We’re generous. We’re positive. We’re friendly. We prefer to focus on the good than the bad. We’re more celebratory than critical.
9. Important conversations happen here.
10. In a small way, you’re supporting the future of journalism.

The website is fuss free, but has some adverts on. It reminds me of stuffwhitepeoplelike.com.  Anyway, check out the links below for an interesting read if you're looking for something new!


www.thoughtcatalog.com
https://twitter.com/#!/thoughtcatalog
http://www.facebook.com/thoughtcatalog

What Do You Love About Yourself?

Inspired by a blog post I read a few weeks ago, here are some things I love about myself.

googled 'passionate'.
got this.

1. I get passionate. This can apply to the trivial (decorating my room (leading to 2 hours flipping through my pile of magazines and pulling out inspiring things and then blu-tacking them to my walls), getting maximum value out of my travelcard) and to serious things (making check lists to make sure I do everything, taking vitamins that have the right sorts of vitamins in) and to important (AND serious) things. Sometimes I get really involved in something and stay up until it's done or until I have made a check list plan to finish it.

2. Organisation is my thing. Even when my room is a mess, I know where most things are. (see #5) I also get random urges to tidy up my room to various degrees (floor, table, desk, vanity) and to throw things out that I no longer need.

3. I am incredibly fortunate that I have good skin. I very rarely get spots (and it usually happens when I eat ridiculously badly for a few days) and have an extensive skincare regime to ensure that my skin doesn't get too dry or blemished or aged, and I try not to drink strange water. I have only had one serious breakout.

4. Now it's getting difficult. *pauses to think* I love that I still carry out the traditions my family taught me, for the New Year, for birthdays, for special days. I have a Chinese calendar in my room that has a page for every day so you get to tear off a page when the day has finished. I can only read the word for 'getting one's hair cut' in the section for good things (because I used to have a vested interest in knowing that word)

5. I like that I put things in illogical places - it's always a surprise. I can't remember if I've mentioned this already. I put a lot of my things in weird places. I have perfume in my sock drawer, and an eyeliner in my kitchen cupboard. I have toothpaste in my food cupboard. I have some euros in one of my clothes drawers, and some suture needles in my wardrobe. Occasionally it is frustrating but if someone ever burgled my house, they'd be perplexed.

6. I love my fast metabolism. This and the skin are some due to good genes and being good in pregnancy. In public, I don't eat a lot as generally that's not socially acceptable, but in the comfort of my own room, it is a whole different story.

7. Most of the time I don't dress awfully.

8. I remember things, like when I first met someone or an event that happened sometime in the past at a place that I revisit.

9. I receive all gifts with good grace, and really look forward to getting presents. I know, so materialistic. Often the gifts are simple things but they make me happy.

10. When I stay awake long enough, I reach something called 'the sleepy point' where all items on the agenda fail to exist anymore and my priority is to go to sleep. Consequently, I get a bit grumpy or quiet when I've reached this point. I can't go significantly past it unless I am out.

11. I can write quite fast if I need to.

12. I don't invite drama into my life. I get frustrated with friendship politics or relationship politics. I am on good terms with my family, thus the main areas of drama are safe.

13. I am flexible and can curl up into a small space to go to sleep.

14. I AM NOT FAT.

I used to have varying self confidence, and would compare myself subconsciously to people I knew - it always felt like they had a better life than me because they had more friends or had better things or were thinner. I used to be in bad relationships and would rely on people's praise to make me feel better. I had massive weight issues (this was something that happened on and off during my teenage years until probably one and a half years ago?). It used to really really bother me.

Somehow something changed and now I am mostly happy with my life - I am no longer as bothered by my weight, I don't really compare myself to other people and I've removed all unhealthy relationships from my life.

This was a really good exercise - I only came up with 14 things but it's a small start :)

Carol
xoxo

dressing up

I do it because I want to.

Often, I feel like getting dressed up (and so I do) for no real reason than I want to. I don't do it because I want to impress someone. I was never really about that. Even P knows that I want to wear something, I do (and on the rare occasion that he doesn't like it, I wear it when he's not around because I get that 'why do you have that?' look) even if the occasion might not demand it.

I don't own anything I don't like to wear and whilst I have my rotating stock of clothes that I wear all the time, it's fun to mix it up and wear something that's been in the wardrobe for a while :)

Also, I don't have a style of dressing. I'd like to think that it's girly and sort of romantic but that's wishful thinking.

These three pictures here are kind of representative of the things I wear when not working. I have some dresses, some casual, some fancy and a couple not yet worn as I am waiting for the right opportunity to wear them. Save for the longer length ones, the rest are ones that I am just as likely to wear for a semi-formal occasion as I am to just chill out with friends. I also wear a lot of jumpers that are not my own.

Lastly, I don't really believe in making too much effort. Yes, I love to dress up, but it's always minimal effort. What's the point of over-accessorising and jingling every time you move?

Colbie Caillat

Such an unusual name, no?

Anyway, I heard these two songs everywhere in New Zealand and Colby is a type of cheese you can buy from there. I heard the first song about 20 times in Christchurch airport when I stayed there overnight. They must have had this CD of the same songs that was on repeat all day.....

And 'I Do' was a song on the Qantas airway radio station.

:)

it feels like more than distance between us

Generally, I don't like to be alone.

Sometimes I just need to be on my own and just spend a whole day in my flat and just hang out and not have to get changed or dressed up and look presentable and just... relax. I don't talk to myself (and if I do, it's just so that I can count off things on a checklist) and I don't fall into squalor. Of course, when I don't have guests, my room becomes a lot less presentable but it's nothing that 10 minutes out of my way cannot fix. (I get annoyed when P is in my way when I am trying to tidy up).

I like spending time in bed if I want to be alone - just reading or watching something on my computer, or having a nap. I get tired easily, from a combination of a less than amazing diet, not enough sleep, being small and having a fast metabolic rate. But I guess there's only so much of my own company I can tolerate.

Over the last few years, there have been times when P and I have been apart, but we have always stayed in contact either by phone or text or email or skype. We've spent a lot of time away from each other, due to various conferences and holidays and trips and travels. I have basically only been to two continents, but  I believe he's been to every one, except The Lost Continent (which is Antarctica's new name, if it wasn't called that already).

Despite opining that I dislike it when people are over showy about their relationship, I fear that sometimes I do it too. For the most part, we have our separate interests and our own group of friends. I used to invite him along to my friends' dinners or birthdays but not so often.. It's not that he doesn't like my friends or that he doesn't want to, more that we have reached an unspoken agreement that we won't merge our friends. I've not met that many of P's friends (and a lot of them don't believe I exist).

But for the most part (again), I have tried to keep our relationship private both in real life and on the internet. Anyone can look for him themselves and look at his professional achievements - even after all this time, I still don't truly understand what he researches. It is a whole other language. I can say the words but I cannot form sentences. Adjoints. Navier-Stokes equations. p=2. Adaptivity. Library. Dolfin. Part of it is because it is not the only thing I talk about - of course I keep my friends updated (sometimes, just as I tell him what my friends are up to). I will NEVER be one of those people whose only conversational topic revolves around their significant other. Part of it is because it is private - there are a lot of things he tells me, and whilst I am proud of these things, they're not for ME to share. Part of it is also out of respect for him.

This 'blog everyday for a month' thing is hard. I don't really edit my posts, I just write and this shows in my haphazard way of writing and how each post makes no real sense.

Neo Sailor Moon

acting one's age

For the most part, I would say that I do not easily get worked up over something. Sure, I get passionate and I get exuberant and I get loud and I get involved, but I tend not to let things annoy or anger me. I am from the school of thought that says that holding onto negativity is bad.

Normally, when I do feel annoyed or just a bit in a ranty mood, I invoke the use of my other blog, which is not used all too often.  You read about those studies that detail how stress levels can impact on your health negatively. But in an ever changing world, stress is becoming more of an everyday occurrence and it's almost normal.

Sometimes I sit down with the intention to blog about something that has irked me somewhat, but then I go to make a drink or something and then sit down and wonder why it was that I was so bothered. I dislike wasting energy on being annoyed or angry; this zen like approach has served me very well.

On another note, a theory I often recount (not my own) is the ladder theory, where women have two ladders and men only have one. To a large extent, this is true. Essentially, a man has one ladder where he assesses women he meets based upon their looks and places them on the ladder according to his real chances of going out with her. A woman has a similar thing for one ladder but also has a friend ladder. This is affectionately known as the friend zone - we've all been there, and essentially this theory is an extension of that.  I don't see any harm in the friend zone, and I personally do not rate looks as highly as other things - this might be because I am in a committed relationship, and so if I weren't in one, maybe my views would change.  The theory says that straight men and straight women can not be just friends, which is the source of much movie and book fodder, where the girl realises her true love is her male best friend or some variant thereof.

Qu'est-ce qu'on pense?

Evolution of Smooth

Just surprised myself (in a good way) by rummaging through my cupboards (it happens a lot more than I would like*) and found an eos lipbalm I bought a couple of years ago still in its packaging. It's gotten seriously cold, and my skin doesn't react well to the cold. It dries out and I have to moisturise loads. Due to my lazy nature, this often doesn't happen every day, and I certainly don't carry out my full skin care routine as often as I should.


This fun looking lipbalm is called a smooth sphere, which is just as it looks. You open the sphere by twisting and the shape of the lipbalm means that you can cover both your lips at the same time, thus preventing you from making the fish face when you apply normal lipbalm or lipstick.

These are American products, and I found out about them through a youtube video of Michelle Phan's from a while back. They looked quite cute, and I was in need for a lipbalm. They claimed to be almost wholly natural and organic so after some serious googling, I came across a website that stocked them in the UK. They only had three flavours back then, the strawberry one, honeysuckle honeydew and sweet mint. Now there's 7 flavours all together.


They're quite fun to use... for those that like to fidget with something, you can twist the top on and off. It doesn't loosen it; the closing mechanism remains as firm as ever, and even after dropping it on the floor and it spending time at the bottom of my bag for quite a few months, it still remained in great condition.


I initially got 2, and the only reason I've opened the second is because I can't find the first one.


This is what the website says about them:

Can a lip balm make you smile? We think so. That's why we invented this one.

• Long-lasting moisture
• Shea butter & vitamin E
• Smoothes on clear
• New smooth sphere precisely glides on to lips
• Twist-off top
• Gluten-free
• Paraben-free
• Petrolatum-free
• Phthalate-free

eos lip balm is 95% organic, 100% natural, and paraben and petrolatum free. Packed with antioxidant-rich vitamin E, soothing shea butter and jojoba oil, eos keeps your lips moist, soft and sensationally smooth.

EOS also make other products - when I first went on this website, they only had lipbalms and the other products were in development. Now they have hand lotion, shave cream, a conventional looking lipbalm in stick form.


Buy and enjoy - they're sturdy and taste really yummy :)


http://evolutionofsmooth.com/products_lip_sphere.html 
evolutionofsmooth.com
www.twitter.com/eosproducts
www.facebook.com/eos
I got mine from http://www.naturallyfabulous.co.uk/eos-304-c.asp in 2010.




*I have a weird habit of putting things logically in illogical places. For example -
1. I once found some toothpaste I'd recently bought in the fridge
2. Whilst rummaging through my sock drawer, I found an unopened box of perfume
3. I have an eyeliner in my kitchen cupboard. I know that if I move it somewhere, I'll forget where so the kitchen cupboard remains its home
Essentially, if there is something I can't find, I just think 'where would past-me put something like this and know that it's totally illogical but made sense at the time'. Then I go look and there it is. Most things turn up in my kitchen cupboard or in the fridge.

Sherlock Holmes

There have been many versions of Sherlock Holmes, in films and TV series, of this well loved character that lived at 222b Baker Street, and was attended to by Mrs Hudson, and worked with Dr Watson. Today, there is a museum on Baker Street and the local station has the shadow silhouette or Sherlock, or it used to  anyway.


I've watched most of the Granada TV series, with Jeremy Brett as Holmes, who has been considered the definitive Holmes. He masters the character very well, and has great control of facial expression and body language. The series brought to life a majority of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's writings, many of which I have read, and makes the mystery real and sometimes hard to work out. He is exactly what I would imagine that one person in your life to be like... a little crazy and eccentric but always gets the job done, however unconventional the method. Kind of like House. His deductions are portrayed brilliantly, and the detail that goes into Victorian England in these series is wonderful.

I am late on the bandwagon but there have been two films directed by Guy Ritchie, with Robert Downey Jr as Holmes. He actually plays very convincingly and brings that sort of modern twist to the character. There has also been a BBC series, with Benedict Cumberbatch as the lead character, which I have yet to watch. (Also, I've just found that it's updated with technology from the present day. This makes me less inclined to watch -_-)


What I find most fascinating about Sherlock Holmes is his personality; he is very bipolar and has very unconventional methods and can work out things as quick as a cat and make the most tenuous links seem real. After watching a few episodes of the Granada series, I could work out the master behind the crimes but it would never be very obvious. His closed offness is also very interesting; there is something in the dressing of each of the three characters which I have described which makes them aloof and untouchable and also slightly volatile. His obvious disdain for his companion Watson getting married is clearly a front for his reflection of his loneliness, having considered Irene Adler as The Woman, in the very first episode of The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes, where in A Scandal in Bohemia, he prevents photos of the future king with his mistress (Adler) being leaked to the press, and requests that he keep the photos. The way she is portrayed by Rachel McAdams is absolutely gorgeous - she has come a long way since her Mean Girl days.

 I recently watched the second Ritchie Sherlock film, which is basically 'The Final Problem' set in Reichenbach with Moriarty and Sherlock meeting face to face. Except the ending of the film is based in Switzerland.

I didn't know the plotline of Sherlock 2 before seeing it, but within the first few minutes it was easy to guess that it was based on The Final Problem. This was one of my favourite episodes, and also contains my favourite conversation in which two great minds deliciously battle words and Sherlock ends with one of the best lines:

"'Well, well,' said he, at last. 'It seems a pity, but I have done what I could. I know every move of your game. You can do nothing before Monday. It has been a duel between you and me, Mr. Holmes. You hope to place me in the dock. I tell you that I will never stand in the dock. You hope to beat me. I tell you that you will never beat me. If you are clever enough to bring destruction upon me, rest assured that I shall do as much to you.'

"'You have paid me several compliments, Mr. Moriarty,' said I. 'Let me pay you one in return when I say that if I were assured of the former eventuality I would, in the interests of the public, cheerfully accept the latter.'

from: http://sherlock-holmes.classic-literature.co.uk/the-final-problem/ebook-page-04.asp where you can read this story online.

Do not go gentle into that good night

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, 
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.




- Dylan Thomas

Death is the last uncertainty and its inevitable arrival at some point during our lives should not stop us from doing the things we want to do.

more random facts

#1. What's a nickname only your family calls you?
My family tend to call me the Cantonese word for 'little girl' or 'youngest daughter', which is pronounced like 'very' in Spanish, muy. However, there is a slight inflection which means I can't really spell it properly phonetically, and also, it's also a hard word to say if you don't know how to say it.

#2. What's a weird habit of yours?
I never make my bed and I make no excuses about not making it. My reasoning is, what's the point when you just mess it up when you get back in and sleep in it for a whole night? I move a lot in my sleep.

#3. Do you have any weird phobias?
The dark (Nyctophobia, according to phobialist.com), a reproduced owl hoot and any creature that has more than 4 legs. And also putting my bedclothes on the floor (e.g. when changing the duvet cover). Despite it not being a proper phobia, I am sometimes worried that gusts of wind will blow me away. They already push me forward with more force than I would like.


#4. What's a song you secretly LOVE to blast & belt out when you're alone?
It depends on what song I have been listening to recently!!! I generally don't play music that often now, just when I feel like it.

#5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves?
Poor manners and people who cannot spell properly or use correct grammar. I am not talking perfect grammar, but the basics.

#6. What's one of your nervous habits?
I fidget a lot.

#7. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
As I move about a lot in my sleep and apparently kick myself (I get unexplained bruises on my legs sometimes), I don't stay on one side. However, I start off on the left.


#8. What was your first stuffed animal && it's name?
I confess I can't actually remember my first stuffed animal. I however still have a brown bear with one eye which I affectionately call my 'nameless one eyed bear'.

#9. What's the drink you ALWAYS order at starbucks?
Not being a frequent starbucks goer, I don't have one drink I always get. I go more for the food. Normally, I get a cappuccino.

#10. What's the beauty rule you preach.. but never ACTUALLY practice?
Cleanse every day. I do it every third time I shower.


#11. Which way do you face in the shower?
Towards the water. I have no problems getting my face wet.


#12. Do you have any 'weird' body 'skills'?
My wrists can click like crazy.


#13. What's your favorite 'comfort food'/food thats 'bad' but you love to eat it anyways?
Pasta with cheese


#14. What's a phrase or exclamation you always say?
'I bought you a clock!'


#15. Time to sleep- what are you ACTUALLY wearing?
a long tshirt

retro Disney

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